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[03 Mar 2005|05:30pm] |
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Eddy Barsoon Eddy Barsoon, i nursed him through two divorces, a cocaine rehab, and a pregnant receptionist. Ha, Gods creature right? Gods special little creature, HA. And i warned him Kevin, i warned him every step of the way. Watching him bounce around like a fuckin game, like a wind up toy! Like two hundred and fifty pounds of self-serving greed on wheels. The next thousand years is right around the corner Kevin, and Eddy Barsoon, take a good look, cause he's the poster child for the millenium! These people, its no mystery where they come from! You sharpen the human appettite to the point where it can split atoms with its desire, you build egoes the size of cathedrals, you fiberoptically connect the world to every eager impulse, Grease even the dullest dreams with these dollar green gold plated fantasies until every human becomes an aspiring Emperor. Becomes his own god. And where can you go from there? And as we're scrambling from one deal to the next....whose got his eye on the planet? As the air thickens, the water sours, even the bees honey takes on the metallic taster of radioactivity. And it just keeps comin and comin, faster and faster. Theres no chance to think, to prepare. Its buy futures, sell futures, when there is no future. We a got a runaway train boy. We got a million Eddy Barsoons all joggin into the future. Everyone of them gettin ready to fist-fuck Gods ex-planet, lick their fingers clean as they reach out for their pristine cyberkinetic keyboards to tote up their fuckin billable hours. And then it hits home, YOU got to pay your own way Eddy. Its a little late in the game to BUY OUT now. Your belly is too full, your dick is sore, your eyes are bloodshot, and your screamin for someone to help! But guess what?! theres no one there. Your all alone Eddy, your Gods special little creature..........maybe its true, maybe God threw the dice once too often, maybe he let us all down.
^now thats just beautiful.
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.3Jokers In The Deck. || . .Deal Your Hand.
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[23 Feb 2005|03:03pm] |
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Its been awhile since i updated. I just grew weary of the whole internet thing for awhile.
But lately things have been really weird. Im getting real stressed out about this whole testing thing, and i've come to the conclusion that most of the teachers in my school arent completely "there" in the head.
How are people supposed to learn when the teachers do things half assed and they cant stay on subject. Almost every fuckin class i go in the teacher goes off on some sort of tangent complaining about this or that. Or just talking about their lives. I DONT GIVE A FLYIN RATS ASS about what goes on in their life. You dont see me tellin them my problems. I just want to pass and be able to graduate. Damn. And not to mention the people im around all day are completely idiotic and two faced. I cant wait to move man.
On another note, i started talking to Cassie and we im surprised how well we hit it off. Shes becoming one of those people who i think i can really relate too and already we have a good friendship...that makes me happy.
If anyone hasnt seen amys pictures of Winslow Township Highschools disgusting conditions i seriously suggest you take a look. The place is obviously aged way past its time....or (and this is what i think) it is just a festering blister on the state of NJ and someone needs to pop it. AMEN.
ok im off to go study.
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| ..A Realization.. |
[25 Jan 2005|10:13pm] |
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You know today i began to think about a lot of things. Mostly things about other people and then about myself.
You know, i know so many people who say that they are suicidal, or that they want to end it all now. And i think its ridiculous. In my mind, i know a way to end my life quickly and painlessly. And that option is open to everyone.
But personally, i dont want to end it here. I want to know what happens next. Yeah i can be cynical and so on but still, im not going to forfeit the gift to live, because im more interested in seeing what happens after i conquer my problems. No matter which way it goes, itll be an adventure.
Now, thats not an attack on people who say they are suicidal, but its just my opinion, and if it offends you im sorry, but its the way i feel.
And right now im talkin to danielle. And i love her, and she is smellin good right now.< Thats all her tellin me what to right.
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| Interesting Discovery. |
[23 Jan 2005|04:47pm] |
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I went for a stroll today and decided to make it a crazy long walk. Dont ask me how but i ended up a half a mile away from home and as i was walking i decided out of no where to just start walkin in this little bit of woods by the road. Well needless to day my feet were covered in snow and quite cold so i stopped and i look up and i see this half built house. Now i say half built not meaning it was as of recently being built but that it was being built a long time ago and then abandoned. I know that for a fact because there is a major growth of trees around it and graffiti all over the walls. But it still looks extremely interesting. I only got to the outside of it because of the snow but when the snow melts ill go inside and take some pictures. I wish i had brought my camera but i forgot.
And before i go please seriously answer this question:
When you die, what are the three things you want done either with your family, your body, your money, anything you can think of.
DAN
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| Allow me to inform you... |
[18 Jan 2005|07:22pm] |
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So much melodrama has gone on since I last updated. But to save myself the agrivation of the backlashes I wont name all the trouble.
Anyway, I went for a walk today, and it is cold outside. The type of cold that goes right through you. But it felt good. I love and hate winter. But right now im talking to manda and we’re having a pretty good conversation.
When I feel like I will write down in this journal whats been goin on with my dreams, but as of now, I don’t have enough energy to type it all.
Leave a comment. Say whatever you want, you love me, you hate me, you wish me bad luck anything, I want to hear someone.
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.9Jokers In The Deck. || . .Deal Your Hand.
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| ..Scotch...Band tapes... |
[22 Dec 2004|09:03pm] |
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Its been a while since i updated. But thats because i've been busy.
Turthfully everything, for the most part, is going pretty good. Mel and i went to philly last Saturday to see Lisa. We chilled with her, Annie, Tj, and Nikki(danielle got lost trying to get over there)*cough* not the sharpest crayon in the box*cough* . It was fun as hell. I cant wait to go up there and stay over.
This weekend im goin up to my gmoms for a few days and then im comin home and partyin, shit i have a whole week off.
O.k, i dont really have much else to write about, somebody comment. Ask me somethin.
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[05 Dec 2004|07:48pm] |
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hello to all.
Im bored and tired and etc. but this weekend was pretty good. Friday i saw Mel,Manda,Lisa,and T.j. We all chilled and went out with Ms. Rita. We actually had a lot of fun. Then saturday danielle came up and that was definitly a fun time.
This weekend im tryin to go to South Street. I gotta work that one out. But right now im gonna go to bed.
Yeah can you say "two fuckin awesome people"?
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.3Jokers In The Deck. || . .Deal Your Hand.
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| ..allow me to explain myself.. |
[27 Nov 2004|11:48pm] |
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This weekend was good and bad. Thanksgiving was crazy. But i went out with rio,jamie, and steve later on in the night for a little while. On friday i went into atco and chilled with Mel,Lisa,T.j, Danielle, and Manda. We had some good times. Even though it was cold as shit.
Today i got into a fight with my mother in the car. Shes all uptight since she talked to lisas mom. So i would just like to give a nice big thankyou to my mom and lisas mom for trying to royally screw everything up. I told my mom if she doesnt let me visit my friend then im just gonna sneak up there. So screw it.
Tonight mel and i walked around and talked. It seems alot of crap is flying around. Most which doesnt involve me and i am trying not to get dragged into it.
And now i am off to bed. Good night to all. Later
Dan
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[16 Nov 2004|04:04pm] |
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Today is a bad, bad day.
Everything just keeps going wrong. Two of my close and closest friends are moving. And people just wouldnt stop startin shit today. It just never stops. This week is going to suck.
I had such a good weekend and now this week is just a downer. It just makes you realize how quickly things can go bad.
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.3Jokers In The Deck. || . .Deal Your Hand.
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| ...I said Goddamn......Goddamn... |
[08 Nov 2004|11:20pm] |
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o.k let me just say that the character Mia Wallace is the epitome of coolness.
Yeah, shes my new wife.......sorry lucy.
Im countin down the friggin days until saturday. Juls party is going to be crazy. Lisa and Jamies birthday parties......that means mad people...and a lot of insanity....im lovin it.
Im trying to find things to do this week.......im probably goin to lisas tommorow......lori wants me to stay after some time this week so we can hang out for a little bit. That might work.
anway, im going to sleep....later home nuggets
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.2Jokers In The Deck. || . .Deal Your Hand.
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| ..."thats your uncle faggot and your ratass grandfather"... |
[27 Oct 2004|03:56pm] |
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Today was a half day in the circle of hell. I got home went for a walk, and all of the sudden i was real tired. So when i came home i fell asleep on the couch for twenty minutes and now i feel refreshed.
This weekend should be fun. Danielle and Nikole are comin up from Philly. So it should be a good time.
Today im tryin to go out. But it doesnt look like anyone will drive me over to Lisa Maries house cause no one is home and Sherri doesnt get off work until 6.
I dont know what we are gonna do tonight but i want something scary to happen, cause we need to get into the holiday spirit. you know you know.
I went to my moms work yesterday, and we looked over to where the offices lawn is and there was mad police and forensics people. And all the news station trucks for all different channels were parked all over. We came to find out that they found three our four (i cant remember) skulls buried there. I was trippin out.
o.k i have to go get ready.
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[24 Oct 2004|04:36pm] |
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Man i need to change a few things on here. But im too lazy. But i will try and get around to getting a new icon.
Lately BM has been crazy. We went back in the woods one night and the truck started chasing our car. Then it turned off its lights so we couldnt see it. And it just snuck right up on us and cut us off. It was crazy. And another time we went down to the dirt trail and turned on the highbeams. And we saw maybe fifteen people just standing in the woods....they all started running out screaming at us, it was wild. Hopefully we can go tonight.
I hate school. Im failing AII. But whatever. I dont even give a shit. Ill do what i gotta do even if it means taking it next year but im trying to make this year and next year fun as hell. I've gone out almost everynight, and surprisingly my grades have gone up, most likely because im not as stressed.
Halloween weekends gonna be fun. And the weekend after that im planning on going to philly with lisa and melissa. Shits gonna be crazy.
I think thats all i have to say.
LATEr
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.Deal Your Hand.
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| ....headache.. |
[17 Oct 2004|07:19pm] |
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My head hurts like a mofo.
But in other news, i was clipped out of seeing mel tonight because my mother is lazy and has some weird feeling of obligation to my family. So of course, i suffer the consequences.
This weekend was pretty good. I had fun on friday. In fact it was a time ill remember for quite some time. Saturday i sat around batsto in the pouring rain because some people in my family should be in an insane asylum...
In regards to who ever left that very random comment in my last entry.....uh thanks?
Tommorow im walkin to atco after school to go see mel....because i miss her.
LATER
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.4Jokers In The Deck. || . .Deal Your Hand.
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| hey look its a long over due update |
[11 Oct 2004|10:19pm] |
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This weekend was off the friggin hook. On friday i went to philly right after school with melissa and lisa. And we met up with lisa's cousin and all those people. Friday was crazy as hell. Saturday was just the same. I love it there. I dont worry about anything when im away from home.
Lately i've been really impatient and my fuse has been really short. Probably cause im tired and stressed from school. But its cool, cause i let go of alot of shit cause im not gonna get all stressed out over stupid bullshit.
Also, recently i have figured out who some people really are, and who really wants to be my friend. I think people are just fucked up in general and there isnt much anyone can do about it.
O.k im off to look up old gypsy folktales....cause im a loser.
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.2Jokers In The Deck. || . .Deal Your Hand.
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| ..pout.. |
[25 Sep 2004|11:57pm] |
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Today i went to the beach because i couldnt escape from my house. I spent most of the day worrying about stuff. But i did jump in the water and go swimming for like an hour. It was cold but my family doesnt care. Im tired as hell.
Im goin out tommorow and no one is stopping me. I cant wait till this friday. Im goin to philly with lisa and im saving up all my money. its gonna be crazy.
Schools goin o.k. My grades are surprisingly high. I think its because i hang out with my friends during the week and im less stressed out. Lol, during school i've been hearing somethings about people. Man some people are just plain old weird.
O.k thats the end of this entry. Im off to go fill out Jacquifas survey.
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